Ash Wednesday

Yesterday, I started off this Lenten season with a really good conversation about faith. Conversations of that sort always end up without anything resolved, but with even more things to think about. Instead of being frustrated by a lack of resolution, I'm really glad for the conversation that I had, because lately I haven't been thinking about my faith at all. I was tired of thinking about it and not getting myself anywhere, and feeling around in the dark for anything that would satisfy me. "Going through the motions" is a behavior that we all experience, but I'd say that I have been living that to an extreme as of late. Almost living it in such a way as to trick myself into thinking that my behavior had meaning.

But this Lenten season, I don't want to do that any more.

I don't want to do things that don't make sense to me, or don't fulfill me in any way. I was asked a question that I didn't even know how to answer, a question that seems so simple: "What do you want?"
But when asked, I found myself without words. I searched my mind and my heart but couldn't find an answer, and that's what I want to focus on for Lent. I want to have the answer, and I want to be able to seek after that desire, once I discern it.